I started this post last night at 3:57am. I wanted to be asleep but I wasn’t making any efforts to get to sleep. My eyes were burning because it was 3:57am but I wanted to write.
Yesterday was one of those days that was BEYOND my wildest dreams. In a year where opportunity after opportunity has been presented to me and each one blew me outta the water more than the last, I am amazed at what is happening in my life. I am AMAZED at God’s fingerprints all over me. I thank the day my mama named me “God’s Love” because on that day, she blessed me to stay blessed, and for THAT, I thank her.
“You are one of two dozen nominees on the cutting edge of social media, selected by Women’s Media Center leaders including Loreen Arbus, Donna Deitch, Jodie Evans, Jane Fonda, Carol Jenkins, Robin Morgan and Gloria Steinem. The nominees represent a diverse group of journalists, bloggers, activists, and other social media innovators who spread their online messages with unusual creativity, resourcefulness, and impact. The work done by you and the other nominees complements the work of the Women’s Media Center to make sure women’s and girls’ voices and stories are visible and powerful in media.”
I almost fell OUT. The work of the Women’s Media Center is amazing and they are a force to be reckoned with so I was doing a jig. Like this:
AND DO YOU SEE THOSE NAMES UP THERE??? Chile… STAWP! I remembered that someone from the Women’s Media Center came up to me, Issa Rae, Chescaleigh and Dr. Goddess before our panel at BlogHer in August to ask if it was ok for them to take our pics but I hadn’t thought much about it.
This was the ONE award that WMC gives out that is chosen by the general public, so voting began about a month or so ago. The day I received the names of my fellow nominees, I sat in the chair at home with my mouth agape. Ummm… Issa Rae. Janet Mock. Emily May. Jessica Luther. Stacy Burns. Wait. Wayment. WAYMENT. They put me in a category with these AWESOMELY EPIC SUPERWOMEN?!?!?
WELP. I’m not gonna win but I’m PERFECTLY fine with that. I won’t even campaign too hard so I accept my loss early. But this is a loss I was honored to take. Because the 19 women who were nominated along with me are people who I just have nothing but respect for. Seriously. Ask my friends. Many of them heard this from me.
So I tweeted about it a couple of times and put one link underneath one of my blogposts for folks to vote for me. And I placed it on Facebook like twice. I didn’t e’em go hard in the paint much.
And then about two weeks ago… I was having one of THE SHITTIEST days I’ve had in a while. One of those days where I was just like I’m gonna lay in bed because… let’s just say FOR REASONS. And I checked my email around 10pm to find:
“We are thrilled to tell you that you have been voted the winner of our 2012 Social Media Award. Congratulations! The Internet thinks you are fantastic, and so do we. We love your passion for bringing a bigger spotlight to women and girls living with HIV and AIDS, and we love that you can bring real criticism of entertainment media, like on Zoe Saldana playing Nina Simone, yet keep it funny at the same time.”
CHILE WHEN I TELL YOU I LOST MY SHIT??? Listen. I SAID LISTEN. I. lost. my. shit. I was DONE. I believe I hit my dougie which led to a cabbage patch which then became the wop. And then I did a body roll.
OHMYGAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WON!!! And it’s because of my work here AND with The Red Pump Project!
I replied back to Michelle, WMC’s online manager with just as much excitement. WHY HIDE IT??? It was like God was all “I know you’re down in the dumps but girl STAWP. I gotchu.” And in the email, I was told I had to keep quiet about it because the winner of the award would be announced the night of the dinner, as the surprise of the evening.
And then I was all. Wait. HOW THE HELL DID I WIN??? WHAT THE HELL? DID THEY GET THIS WRONG? Yes, those CAPS are necessary because I was screaming. And I actually emailed Michelle that and she said “Your people did right by you. No doubt.”
MYYYYYY PEOPLE! YOU GUYS AND GALS! YOU DID RIGHT BY ME! YOU. DID. RIGHT. BY. ME.
OHMYGOODNESS. YOU AMAZING AWESOME SUPPORTIVE INCREDIBLE FANTASTIC BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
You voted for me when I didn’t even TRULY believe I had a chance in hell to win. YOU VOTED FOR ME WHEN YOU COULDA VOTED FOR ANYONE ELSE ON THAT LIST. You voted for me when I didn’t understand how tall I stood.
Y’all did right by me. And for THAT, and so so so much more, I thank you.
The community you’ve helped me build online is like Grandma’s cooking. It’s like my Mama’s rice and stew. It’s like new shoes that fit you just right. It’s like your favorite song coming up in iTunes. It’s like laying on the couch with your boo in a snuggie. This community is FILLED with love. YOU GUYS are love. My name means love so it’s only right we found each other.
So you gifted me with a day that dwarfed any others I’ve had so far, in my career anyway. And that recap is to come tomorrow, detailing what happened in that room and why it was the most EPIC night I’ve had. I just didn’t want THIS day to go by without me expressing my appreciation for my readers, my family, my friends.
You did right by me.
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